Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence.



chapters



(00:00 ) listen with caution

(00:16 ) next on lovelustfear

(01:21 ) about kaitlyn

(02:11 ) kaitlyn’s story

(19:02 ) questions & answers

(23:30 ) closing thoughts

(24:18 ) charity & organizations

(24:48 ) submit your story

(24:59 ) disclaimer



quotes



“I thought that it was going to be, like, a romance novel because he painted that picture for me.” - Kaitlyn

“We didn't have boundaries. those, between him and I, those didn't exist.” - Kaitlyn

“He would wake up and decide that he wanted to be mad at me for something that he dreamt about, and he would take it out on me.” - Kaitlyn

“I had to get stripped of everything that I'd ever known. So those basic emotions that we get when we're children. I got stripped down to those emotions. in therapy, it was like, you think you understand guilt but you need to learn just happiness.” - Kaitlyn



music | sounds



Music (CC BY 4.0):

Lost Place Atmospheres (002-003) by Sascha Ende

Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)



Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay



Spacetime by Mountaineer



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Cleveland Rape Crisis Center

https://clevelandrapecrisis.org/

Cleveland Rape Crisis Center supports survivors of rape and sexual abuse, promotes healing and prevention and advocates for social change.



Futures Without Violence

https://www.futureswithoutviolence.org/

For more than 30 years, FUTURES has been providing groundbreaking programs, policies, and campaigns that empower individuals and organizations working to end violence against women and children around the world.



National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)

Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)

Text: START to 88788 

https://www.thehotline.org/

https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline

https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/



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